“Mine is not to question why, mine is just to do or die.”
Most people have probably heard this quote before, and understood the basics of it. I was one who understood the basics. It was, “Just do it.” “Quit yer yappin’.” “Stop your complainin’.” “Shuttup yu mout’,” (Jamaican colloquialism) “Git ‘er done.” “Just do the damn thang!”
The thing is, there’s no gratitude in that, and that theory of thought then leaves behind at least one question for anyone who’s really trying to pay attention. You see, at the time that I initially heard this quote, I wasn’t paying attention. I was just a teen trying to navigate the general flow of my life; trying to be flexible and roll with the punches.
Problem with that, is that most of us, whether conscious or not, were groomed to be somewhat inflexible. You hear it in statements like, “That’s just the way it is,” or, “That’s the way it’s always been,” or, “It is what it is.” All of these statements demonstrate a defeatist’s attitude. There’s no room for change in those statements.
And, if there’s no room for change in the spirit, there’s no room for anything new. There’s no room for blessings, and in spite of the fact that God’s unmerited favor can be bestowed; with an unmovable, defeated spirit, His unmerited favor can’t be received.
Years ago, prior to the initiation to my attempts to pay attention, God revealed a piece of the puzzle that is my purpose. At the age of 15, I received a revelation that I had a gift of healing. I had no idea how I knew this, I just knew. At the time, my interest was in being a veterinarian, and I thought that was my path. I have always loved animals, and have been able to gain their trust.
When I was attending the local college, I had a menagerie of wildlife always on the lookout for me by the lake. The ducks might hear the sound of my voice, or catch my scent in the wind, and come running…well, waddling as fast as their legs could go, or simply fly to me. The large ganders and geese would eat out of my hands, and peck at my legs if I didn’t deliver food to them fast enough. Even the turtles and the fish would hover by the shoreline, waiting for me to notice them.
Currently, I share the title of “Neighborhood Cat Lady,” with my neighbor, Joe; who’s gay, and has no problem being referred to as such. Despite no waterways in close proximity, we have a Muscovie duck who has adopted us as her people, and our house as her home base. She sleeps in our yard nightly, and loves when I rub under her neck, massage her tail and wings and tell her what a sweet baby girl she is. I make sure to put out fresh water for her and her own separate container with cat food, which she loves. I have also rescued 2 half grown pit bulls, and miraculously managed to find the owners of each one.
This being my nature, is it any surprise that I thought I’d be a vet? But 20+ years of hard knocks and struggle can wipe away the innocence, and any natural inclination towards trusting. I have always told my son that in order for a new plant to grow, the seed has to be pushed down to the ground first. Then as the seedling begins to burst forth, it has to struggle to lift itself up through that dirt, which strengthens its stalk. Additionally, its roots have to go down through the mud before it can come up.
Again, I reiterate that back then, I was not attentive. No one teaches children about the art of paying attention. In fact, in the drug filled, autistic spectrum based society that we live in today, attentiveness is a skill that only the wealthy have mastered, which is a major reason for their wealth. You see, the question is, “What is your focus?” What is it that each of us is supposed to pay attention to in order to find our path or life’s purpose?
At the start of a new year, many people make a bunch of “resolutions.” Most of their resolutions involve “not” doing something, that either they already knew was unhealthy for their life, and should have changed a while ago; or, after a New Year‘s night of craziness or debauchery; they suddenly realized how much they had endangered their life with thoughtless behavior, and resolve not to act so stupidly again.
Either way, most of the time, these “resolutions” are rendered ineffective because you can’t faithfully act on a negative sentiment. Additionally, there is no real spiritual awakening, and no new consciousness in the unconscious mind involved in this resolution process. In order for this new consciousness to occur, you have to renew or reprogram your mind, and a resolution alone will not accomplish that.
Some people manage to get past this world’s distractions enough to focus on a cause, path or purpose, but then waste too much time getting lost in the “how” of it all, especially if they are starting from a place of lack or limited resources. I started on my journey from such a place. In fact I was hovering in the starting zone of my path for quite a while, wondering how I could possibly do what I’m called to. I knew I needed a team; I knew I needed equipment; I knew I needed access.
I’ve wrestled with myself over my own self-doubts, inhibitions about being on film, my age, and the fact that I don’t look like a poster child for the fitness industry…all of these plagued me because I’m in the natural health industry, but haven’t fully mastered a green lifestyle yet. I’m still a work in progress on that front, but that fact takes absolutely nothing away from my gift for healing.
And, I had an epiphany. There are plenty of people out there just like me, who want to live and be healthier in their lifestyle choices, and, who want to live pain free. None of this prohibits me from reaching out to any of them, especially because the fruit is already in the seed. No one sits around wondering how The Seed will grow. (Outside of perhaps botanists and agriculturalists – bygones)
The point is that it is a known fact that if a Seed is tended to properly; if the correct attention is given to it, the growth process will undoubtedly occur. No one has to really ask how. There’s an expectation there…a faith…trust. Man always gets in his own way. It’s simply time to bloom. It’s time to bear the Fruit that has been hibernating inside the Seed of you and I. There’s no better time than today to take the reigns. It’s time to get moving. Get your proverbial gardening hoe out…whatever your hoe maybe, and get to tending in the garden of your dream. Get focused. Take action. It’s time to move.