Dream Journal – Day 1 The Spirit World and Your Destiny Part 11

The next section on the dream journal is a reference to Daniel 4. However I am going to go back to the beginning of the book. I think that we need to go to the beginning, because we need to establish the character of Daniel.
The 7 C’s of character
Daniel is one of a few men in the bible, that God says absolutely nothing negative about. This is due to his devotion to the Lord, and, to the exemplary character and leadership qualities he had as a servant of God.
1. Character
He displays character by refusing to do wrong before foreign kings.
2. Competence
Kings offer to pay him for his ability to interpret dreams.
3. Convictions
He refused to eat their rich food or drink wine.
4. Courage

He faces the lions den without flinching.
5. Charisma
He is so exemplary, that royalty wants him to play key roles in government.
6. Commitment
He maintains committed to his God despite pressure to compromise.
7. Compassion
He never loses his love for others, even in an enemy culture.
Daniel and his friends were faithfully led by God from the time they were young boys. They continued this lifestyle as adults, so that by the time of the Babylonian captivity; they were able to stand firmly in the midst of pressure from an enemy culture. Daniel serves as an example of what can happen God is intimately involved, and connected to us in a relationship.
The book of Daniel is an illustration of what happens when a leader stands strong in a relationship with God. That strong connection results in cooperation between God and that leader that affect the world.
Some of the lessons Daniel teaches us about leadership are:
Leaders must first possess Godly qualities before they develop skills.
Commitment precedes everything – resource is will follow a leader’s resolve.
Leaders must often stand alone as they begin their journey.
To identify the leader in a group, look for the one to whom everyone listens.
A gift may take a leader to the top, but humility enable him to endure.
Spiritual leaders talk to God about people before talking to people about God.
Godly leaders do not pursue their own fame, but are out to make God famous.
Before Daniel’s life and purpose is through, he has left a legacy that influences the reign 3 kings. He showed himself to be a man who loved God, and embraced his faith; moving from an interpreter of dreams to a dreamer himself; and providing prophetic insight to the end times.

Dream Journal – Day 1 The Spirit World and Your Destiny Part 10

Jdg 6:20 And the angel of God said unto him, Take the flesh and the unleavened cakes, and lay [them] upon this rock, and pour out the broth. And he did so.


Jdg 6:21  Then the Angel of the LORD put forth the end of the staff that [was] in his hand, and touched the flesh and the unleavened cakes; and there rose up fire out of the rock, and consumed the flesh and the unleavened cakes. Then the angel of the LORD departed out of his sight.


This is the first time that I’ve noticed a reference to the Angel of the Lord carrying a staff. In fact, I’ve never noticed a reference to anything about any angel carrying a staff. However, this is part of the instructions that Jesus gave to his disciples before he left them.


Mar 6:8 And commanded them that they should take nothing for [their] journey, save a staff only; no scrip, no bread, no mone

y in [their] purse:


Additionally, the fire that that came from the rock was not your typical fire.


Lev 9:24 And there came a fire out from before the LORD, and consumed upon the altar the burnt offering and the fat: [which] when all the people saw, they shouted, and fell on their faces.


Jdg 6:22 And when Gideon perceived that he [was] an angel of the LORD, Gideon said, Alas, O Lord GOD! for because I have seen the angel of the LORD face to face.


Jdg 6:23 And the LORD said unto him, Peace [be] unto thee; fear not: thou shalt not die.


Jdg 6:24 Then Gideon built an altar there unto the LORD, and called it Jehovah shalom: unto this day it [is] yet in Ophrah of the Abiezrites.


Jehovah shalom: The Lord is Peace.

At this point God has established Gideon’s faithfulness, because in the act of preparing the offering for the Lord, he demonstrated it. Now that his faithfulness has been proven, it’s time to get to work.


Jdg 6:25  And it came to pass the same night, that the LORD said unto him, Take thy father’s young bullock, even the second bullock of seven years old, and throw down the altar of Baal that thy father hath, and cut down the grove that [is] by it:


Jdg 6:26 And build an altar unto the LORD thy God upon the top of this rock, in the ordered place, and take the second bullock, and offer a burnt sacrifice with the wood of the grove which thou shalt cut down.


Despite Gideons original doubts in himself, God used him. The people rallied around him, and he led the people of Israel into the most lopsided victory in the nation’s history.


How could someone who thought so little of himself, end up with such a victory? Many believe it is because a cause that’s good enough will cause people to automatically buy into it and follow. However, that’s not a leadership works.


People don’t simply follow worthwhile causes. They follow worthwhile leaders who lead worthy causes. It’s called the law of the buy-in. People filter every message through the messenger who delivers it. Therefore, people buy into the leader first, and then into the leader’s vision. You cannot separate the leader from the cause. They always go together.


So then the question becomes, how did a guy with so little self worth, progress from being an obscure member of a minor clan, to a leader of the northern tribes?


There were 4 things that built him into a leader. It started at home with his character.


Jdg 6:27 Then Gideon took ten men of his servants, and did as the LORD had said unto him: and [so] it was, because he feared his father’s household, and the men of the city, that he could not do [it] by day, that he did [it] by night.


Gideon started with 10 household servants; and with their help, he destroyed the altar of baal; and built a new altar to God as instructed. A good leader proves himself first to those who are closest to him.

Dream Journal – Day 1 The Spirit World and Your Destiny Part 9

Jdg 6:17 And he said unto him, If now I have found grace in thy sight, then shew me a sign that thou talkest with me.


Gideon is very clear about the fact that he’s receiving a word from the Lord. However, he still doesn’t understand that he is speaking to God, Himself, because he’s asking for sign, when God, Himself is standing right in front of him.


However, because of the reverence he has for the “emissary” of God that he is speaking to; he asked him to wait while he prepares an offering.


Jdg 6:18 Depart not hence, I pray thee, until I come unto thee, and bring forth my present, and set [it] before thee. And he said, I will tarry until thou come again.
Jdg 6:19  And Gideon went in, and made ready a kid, and unleavened cakes of an ephah of flour: the flesh he put in a basket, and he put the broth in a pot, and brought [it] out unto him under the oak, and presented [it].


This whole process took several hours, maybe even half the day. He had to go get the goat, kill it, clean it, and then cook it.


If you’ve ever had goat, you would know that in order to properly prepare it, you’ve got to cook it a minimum of 2 to 3 hours so that the meat gets tender enough. So Gideon makes this tasty stew for the Lord. Additionally he takes an ephah of flour to make the Lord bread.


1) ephah


  a) a dry measure of quantity, equal to 3 seahs,10 omers; the same as the liquid measurebath; (about 9 imperial gallons (40 l), rabbinical writings give sizes of one-half this amount).
   b) the receptacle for measuring or holding that amount


Now, I didn’t understand all that any better than you probably did; so I got the english translation.


1. a Hebrew unit of dry measure, equal to about a bushel (35 liters).


A liter
1. a unit of capacity redefined in 1964 by a reduction of 28 parts in a million to be exactly equal to one cubic decimeter. It is equivalent to 1.0567 U.S. liquid quarts and is equal to the volume of one kilogram of distilled water at 4°C.


1/10th of 35 quarts would be about 3 quarts of flour; so he made quite a bit of bread. I guess he wanted to make sure he fed Him well. It seems that he cooked the entire goat; and made, at a minimum, about 3 loaves of bread, or perhaps 1-2 dozen cakes. As they always say about having guests over to eat; it’s better to have too much then not enough.

Dream Journal – Day 1 The Spirit World and Your Destiny Part 8

Jdg 6:8 That the LORD sent a prophet unto the children of Israel, which said unto them, Thus saith the LORD God of Israel, I brought you up from Egypt, and brought you forth out of the house of bondage;

I had to come back to this spot, because as I was doing this study with my son, and I noticed something. It said that God sent them a prophet, but it never identifies who that prophet is. So I started digging around, cross referencing; and I discovered that that particular prophet was Elisha.
Jdg 6:9 And I delivered you out of the hand of the Egyptians, and out of the hand of all that oppressed you, and drave them out from before you, and gave you their land;
Jdg 6:10 And I said unto you, I [am] the LORD your God; fear not the gods of the Amorites, in whose land ye dwell: but ye have not obeyed my voice.
Jdg 6:11  And there came an angel of the LORD, and sat under an oak which [was] in Ophrah, that [pertained] unto Joash the Abiezrite: and his son Gideon threshed wheat by the winepress, to hide [it] from the Midianites.
One translation of this says that He sat under an oak tree. Another translation says a terebinth tree. If it was indeed a terebinth tree, it would be interesting because these particular trees were used to make the asherah poles for baal altars. It sounds like a statement of God meeting him where he was, and where he was wasn’t all that great. The signifigance of this will be seen later.
Gideon = “hewer”
1)      youngest son of Joash of the Abiezrites, fifth judge of Israel who led the Israelites against the Midianites
So this guy is a hewer; a seemingly simple job that does not necessarily indicate leadership qualities, yet the angel of the Lord tells him that he is a warrior; and not just any warrior, but a mighty warrior.
Jdg 6:12 And the angel of the LORD appeared unto him, and said unto him, The LORD [is] with thee, thou mighty man of valour.
The reference to the angel of the LORD in the Old Testament, is of Jesus Christ, Himself. The LORD appears to him and tells him, I AM is with you.
Take note of the fact, that here, when God addresses Gideon, He calls him what He sees him as; a mighty man of valour. We never see ourselves as God sees us. And here, Gideon begins to express his self doubt, more so, because he still doesn’t realize who he is speaking to.
Jdg 6:13 And Gideon said unto him, Oh my Lord, if the LORD be with us, why then is all this befallen us? and where [be] all his miracles which our fathers told us of, saying, Did not the LORD bring us up from Egypt? but now the LORD hath forsaken us, and delivered us into the hands of the Midianites.
Here, it is obvious that Gideon recognizes the spiritual authority of the individual he speaking with; however, he has not yet realized that he is actually speaking to God, himself. He speaks of this person (the Angel of the Lord), recognizing his authority by referring to him as Lord. And he speaks of God by referring to Him as LORD.
Jdg 6:14 And the LORD looked upon him, and said, Go in this thy might, and thou shalt save Israel from the hand of the Midianites: have not I sent thee?
Another version, the NIV, states this verse in this way: ” Go in the strength you have, and save Israel out of Midian’s hand.” In other words, go in faith; because, aren’t I sending you? But, look at Gideon’s response. He is still not clear on who he is speaking to.
Jdg 6:15 And he said unto him, Oh my Lord, wherewith shall I save Israel? behold, my family [is] poor in Manasseh, and I [am] the least in my father’s house.
Gideon has a self-esteem problem. He thinks he is nothing and no one. He starts to declare his worthlessness, by telling the Lord that he comes from the weakest clan of all the families in Mannaseh.
He elaborates further, by stating that not only is he from the weakess clan; but additionally, he is the least in his family. Basically, he says that he is so worthless, that even his family has no use for him.
His response is again, typical of most people. We tend to think so little of ourselves, or we allow our circumstance to dictate what we think of ourselves. Like most of us, Gideon had trouble with his self-image, and didn’t realize that God sees us in the light of His love, and in accordance to what He is recreating us to be through faith. Thus, Gideon needed assurance, and He found it in the Lord.
Jdg 6:16 And the LORD said unto him, Surely I  will be with thee, and thou shalt smite the Midianites as one man.
So the lord reassures him. He tells him, “Be sure of the fact that I’m going to be with you.” Not only that, but the attack against the midianites is going to be so well orchestrated; that it will look like they were struck down by one man.

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Dream Journal – Day 1 The Spirit World and Your Destiny Part 7

 1.  What was the specific preparation that each of the following biblical characters received through a dream?

a.   Gideon (Jud. 7)
Since I didn’t know too much about Gideon, I decided to get a little background on him from the previous chapter. Basically, in chapter 6: 1-10, the Israelites were made to suffer, by the will of God for seven years under the oppression of the Midianites, because they chose to disobey the word of the Lord, and worship the Baals.
SEVEN:   Spiritual perfection and fullness or completion.  It is the number of Covenant and of the Holy Spirit
•        7 is the second perfect number.
•        In Hebrew 7 is shevah (shebah) from the root shava (shaba or sheba), to be full. 
•        God rested on the seventh day (Saturday) after creation [Genesis 2:2].
•        To swear an oath in Hebrew is “to seven oneself”.
•        There are seven gifts of the Holy Spirit (CCC#1831; Isaiah 11:1).
•        The sacred Menorah has 7 branches, six on each side of a central shaft, and 7 cup shaped lamps for the olive oil
•        There were 7 classes of furniture in the Tabernacle: Bronze Altar, Bronze Laver, Golden Menorah, Golden Table of the Bread of the Presence, Golden Altar of Incense, Ark of the Covenant, and the Seat of Atonement.
•        The Tabernacle was built in 6 days and dedicated on the 7th [Exodus 40:17].
•        It took Solomon 7 years to build the Temple in Jerusalem. [ 1 Kings 6:37-38]
•        There are 7 holy annual feast days in the Sinai Covenant [Leviticus 23:1-44].
•        The Feast of Passover is the 1st month of the liturgical year but the 7th month of the civil year. [Exodus 12:1-2]
•        The Feast of Tabernacles completes the cycle of Holy Days on the 7th month of the liturgical year.[Leviticus 23:33-43]
•        There are 7 petitions in the Lord’s Prayer [Matthew 6:9-13].
•        There are multiple sevens in the Book of Revelation including.
o        seven Spirits of God [ Revelation 4:5].
o        seven Seals [ Revelation 5:1].
o        seven Angels with Seven Chalices [Revelation 15:5-7].
•        mammals and birds have a gestation of multiples of 7:
mouse: 21 days (3 x 7)     cat 56 (8 x 7)          Sheep 147 (21 x 7)
hare and rat, 28 ( 4×7 )     dog 63 (9 x 7)         hen 21 (3 x 7)
humans 280 days ( 40 x 7)         lion 98 (14 x 7)       duck 42 (6 x 7)
•        With insects the ova are hatched in seven half-days (the wasp, bee, etc).  But with other insects it is seven whole days.  The majority of insects require from 14 (2×7) to 42 (6×7) days and the same applies to the larva state.
•        Man’s pulse beats on the seven-day principle.  For six days out of seven it beats faster in the morning than in the evening while on the seventh day it beats slower.  The seventh day is the day of rest!
•        7 days in a week.
•        7 colors in the spectrum’the seven colored rainbow was the sign of the covenant with Noah.
•        There are 168 hours in a week = 7 x 24.
So in verse 10, they are reminded again of what God had told them.
Jdg 6:10 And I said unto you, I [am] the LORD your God; fear not the gods of the Amorites, in whose land ye dwell: but ye have not obeyed my voice.
This was the reason for their bondage and oppression.
Jdg 6:11 And there came an angel of the LORD, and sat under an oak which [was] in Ophrah, that [pertained] unto Joash the Abiezrite: and his son Gideon threshed wheat by the winepress, to hide [it] from the Midianites.
Ophrah = “fawn”
A place in Manasseh, native place of Gideon; probably located close to Shechem.
Joash = “given by the Lord”
1) son of king Ahaziah and the 8th king of Judah
2) son of king Jehoahaz and the 12th king of the northern kingdom of Israel
3) father of Gideon
4) a son of king Ahab
5) a descendant of Shelah the son of Judah; either the son of Shelah or the son of Jokim
6) son of Shemaah of Gibeah who resorted to David at Ziklag
Abiezrite = “my father is help”
1) one of the family of Abiezer, a descendant of Joseph’s son, Manasseh
Jdg 6:12 And the angel of the LORD appeared unto him, and said unto him, The LORD [is] with thee, thou mighty man of valour.
Jdg 6:13 And Gideon said unto him, Oh my Lord, if the LORD be with us, why then is all this befallen us? and where [be] all his miracles which our fathers told us of, saying, Did not the LORD bring us up from Egypt? but now the LORD hath forsaken us, and delivered us into the hands of the Midianites.
This is the statement of most people when things don’t go the way they expect them to. They feel like the Lord has deserted them, or He’s not with them. However, the first verse of chapter 6 says:
Jdg 6:1 And the children of Israel did evil in the sight of the LORD: and the LORD delivered them into the hand of Midian seven years.
It is clear that God was still there; still present and available even to simply hear them when they finally called out to Him. But look how long it took for them to break of their stubbornness and call upon Him…seven long, desolate years under severe oppression before they would turn from their wicked ways. They were being disciplined for their disobedience.

Dream Journal – Day 1 The Spirit World and Your Destiny Part 6

The next part of the dream journal calls for a study on the book of Judges chapter 7 and a dream concerning Gideon.


Gideon’s story begins in chapter 6 of the book of Judges, when the Lord calls him into His service.
Upon meeting Angel of the Lord, Gideon honors Him by asking if he could bring an offering to Him. The angel tells him that God is with him, but Gideon thinks the reference is to the people of Israel, who has been oppressed for 7 years by the Midianites.
The Lord then confirmed that Gideon is the one that is blessed of the Lord. Gideon confirmed his calling by asking the Lord for a test of the fleece. Then the Lord told Gideon to take a second bull, tear down the Baal altar and build an altar for the Lord.  His obedience brought great favor from the Lord.

An Altar
An Asherah Pole also known as an Obelisk.
This one is located in Washington.

Thus, chapter 7, he is about to go into battle against the Midianites. He asked the Lord to confirm the victory that God promised him. So God sent him to the camp of the Midianites to listen to their conversation. There he overheard one Midianite tell another Midianite about a dream he had had.


Jdg 7:12 And the Midianites and the Amalekites and all the children of the east lay along in the valley like grasshoppers for multitude; and their camels [were] without number, as the sand by the sea side for multitude.


Jdg 7:13 And when Gideon was come, behold, [there was] a man that told a dream unto his fellow, and said, Behold, I dreamed a dream, and, lo, a cake of barley bread tumbled into the host of Midian, and came unto a tent, and smote it that it fell, and overturned it, that the tent lay along.


Jdg 7:14 And his fellow answered and said, This [is] nothing else save the sword of Gideon the son of Joash, a man of Israel: [for] into his hand hath God delivered Midian, and all the host.


1) dream a) dream (ordinary) b) dream (with prophetic meaning)


a grain much cultivated in Egypt (Exd 9:31) and in Palestine (Lev 27:16; Deu 8:8). It was usually the food of horses (1Ki 4:28). Barley bread was used by the poorer people (Jdg 7:13; 2Ki 4:42). Barley of the first crop was ready for the harvest by the time of the Passover, in the middle of April (Rth 1:22; 2Sa 21:9). Mention is made of barley-meal (Num 5:15). Our Lord fed five thousand with “five barley loaves and two small fishes”(Jhn 6:9).


I couldn’t understand the meaning of this dream until I found that definition. I knew the barley was the key to unraveling the meaning of the dream.
The barley was used by the poorer people, and in this case, the reference was to people who were more oppressed. The dream means that the oppressed people had gained the strength and power to roll into the camp of their enemies and  knock them down. Since the Midianites had been oppressing the Jews for 7 years, they knew that this meant they would be defeated.
God made sure to instruct Gideon prior to this event, to take only 300 men. This was so that it could not be said by Israel that they accomplished this by their own strength.

Dream Journal – Day 1 The Spirit World and Your Destiny Part 5

See? I told you all that this would be in several parts. That’s just how God flows through me. It’s never…well, hardly ever brief. However, good news! First, I’ve gotten access to my files from my messed up laptop. Secondly, I’ve read through the section instructed, and now, I’m actually at the journal section with the Q&A.
1.   What was the specific preparation that each of the following biblical characters received through a dream?
a.   Joseph (Gen. 37)
Gen 37:5  And Joseph dreamed a dream, and he told [it] his brethren: and they hated him yet the more.
Gen 37:6  And he said unto them, Hear, I pray you, this dream which I have dreamed:
In both verses, the word dreamed means the following:
1) to dream
a) (Qal)
1) to dream (ordinary)
2) to dream (prophetic)
3) to dream (of false prophets)
b) (Hiphil) to dream
2) to be healthy, be strong
a) (Qal) to be healthy
b) (Hiphil) to restore to health
In both verses the word dream means:
1) dream
a) dream (ordinary)
b) dream (with prophetic meaning)
From what I can tell here, in verse 5, it seems to be indicating that it is healthy to dream, particularly prophetic dreams; and that this is the sort that Joseph had. It was not an ordinary dream.
Verse 6 reiterates this idea, when he tells his brothers to “hear” the prophetic, strong dream he had.
Gen 37:7  For, behold, we [were] binding sheaves in the field, and, lo, my sheaf arose, and also stood upright; and, behold, your sheaves stood round about, and made obeisance to my sheaf.
For the word “binding” there were two sets of definitions together.
1) to bind
a) (Niphal)
1) to be dumb
2) to be bound
b) (Piel) binding (part.)
1) midst, middle
a) midst, middle
b) into, through (after verbs of motion)
c) among (of a number of persons)
d) between (of things arranged by twos)
e) from among (as to take or separate etc)          
What this tells me is that he understood that he would be bound and even separated from his family. In fact, the part of the meaning says “to be dumb,” which tells me that he was aware that he would not know or understand what was happening, or perhaps why it was happening, because the second set of definitions that is coupled with this, says in the “midst” of the situation, and “into,” “through,” and “between.” Also, this meaning indicates “from among,” as in to separate.
1) sheaf (as something bound)
a)    of Israel returning from exile (fig.)
What it appears is that the fact that it was sheaves he saw, made him know that he was bound,  because he first said, we were binding sheaves. Then he said “my sheaf,” which was indicative of him. He didn’t say, ‘the sheaf that I had bound.’ He spoke as if the sheaves represented him and the others.
Then he said, “My sheaf arose.” If he was bound, it would take some effort to arise. He didn’t just say arose, but he also said, “And also stood upright.” If it had to arise and also to stand upright, that is indicative not only of being bound, but  being unable to move; in other words, not being free to choose. Look at the word definition for “arose” and for “stood upright”.
1) to rise, arise, stand, rise up, stand up
a) (Qal)
1) to arise
2) to arise (hostile sense)
3) to arise, become powerful
4) to arise, come on the scene
5) to stand
a) to maintain oneself
b) to be established, be confirmed
c) to stand, endure
d) to be fixed
e) to be valid
f) to be proven
g) to be fulfilled
h) to persist
i) to be set, be fixed
b) (Piel)
1) to fulfil
2) to confirm, ratify, establish, impose
c) (Polel) to raise up
d) (Hithpael) to raise oneself, rise up
e) (Hiphil)
1) to cause to arise, raise
2) to raise, set up, erect, build
3) to raise up, bring on the scene
4) to raise up, rouse, stir up, investigate
5) to raise up, constitute
6) to cause to stand, set, station, establish
7) to make binding
8) to carry out, give effect to
f) (Hophal) to be raised up
To stand upright:
1) to stand, take one’s stand, stand upright, be set (over), establish
a) (Niphal)
1) to station oneself, take one’s stand
2) to stand, be stationed
3) to stand, take an upright position
4) to be stationed, be appointed
5) deputy, prefect, appointed, deputed (subst)
6) to stand firm
b) (Hiphil)
1) to station, set
2) to set up, erect
3) to cause to stand erect
4) to fix, establish
c) (Hophal) to be fixed, be determined, be stationary
I think he was aware that he would be bound and enslaved or imprisoned. The biblical account never indicates that Joseph cried out or pleaded with his brothers, as many other accounts try to indicate. I think it was because he knew that this was the will of God. Meanwhile, the scriptures do relate that his father, upon finding out the brother’s version of what had happened to him, rent his clothes and wept.
But Joseph didn’t do this. He already knew that this was part of God’s plan. I think that this is because he saw that God would raise him up from whatever the situation was, and establish him. After all, remember that Joseph did not tend sheep as his brothers did.
His father made him into the overseer or manager. He oversaw what his brothers did and reported to his father. This indicates that this young man was not as immature as some accounts attempt to claim, although, it also indicates by the evil report he brought back in the first few verses of this chapter, that his report was somewhat defamatory.

He was obviously more mature, but perhaps needed to be humbled, considering his father’s preference towards him.  God showed him a clear vision of his future, and he handled it with calm and grace, despite the fact that some of it was not pleasant.

When Children Dream Part 3

It started a about 5 or 6 years old, but I’m sure I was 5. It was one dream with two parts. At the time, we lived in Topeka, Kansas, and my father was stationed on the air force base there.

The dream starts in the playground at the back of our elementary school. We used to go there to play all the time with our neighbors. A group of us was there on that day, and I had decided to go home, so I left the playground, and instead of walking up the grassy hill of our neighbor’s back yard, I chose to go on the sidewalk instead.

As I was walking up the rise (small hill), it started getting dark outside, as if it was evening, but it was early in the day. As the light was fading, I began to run towards my house, reaching it just as the the darkness reached me. I went inside to find the whole house in darkness.

The house was set up in this fashion: As you come through the front door, if you made an immediate right, you would be walking into the kitchen, which was like a two-sided, cabinet-filled passageway into the dining room. The dining room extended beyond the kitchen, connecting on that side to the living room, which was also visible from the front door if you walked straight ahead. The hallway was on the left as you walked towards the living room, and there were three bedrooms, a basement, and a bathroom and linen closet.

I began feeling my way through the house, down the hallway-holding on to the walls, and calling out my family’s names. As I touched each door in the hall and passed it, they started to glow. Again, as I passed the doors with my hands making contact, the doors now opened and as I walked ahead, four creatures came out of these doors, one out of each respectively. There was a Dracula, werewolf, mummy, and a Frankenstein monster. I heard a sound and looked behind me to see these four creatures coming towards me.

I began to run as fast as I could, turning to look over my shoulders to see how close the creatures were to me. One minute I’d look, and I’d see the creatures. The next minute, I’d look, and see my family chasing me. I did a double take, and it flashed back to the monsters. I kept running and the rest of the house just disappeared. The hallway went on forever it seemed, and the monsters kept chasing me. I ran until I actually ran out of hallway-it abruptly ended, and I ran off the edge.

As I was falling into the darkness-a darkness so black you could literally feel it; I saw the creatures looking down at me from above. As I was falling, I began to see what looked like vines, or maybe veins along what may have been the walls or side of this blackness I was falling into; but they were red and orange and yellow-a hellish looking combination of these colors.

My falling was abruptly stopped as it seemed something had caught me. As my eyes adjusted to the dim light, I discovered that I was in a gigantic spider’s web. Knowing that this meant there was a spider somewhere nearby, I began to struggle to extract myself from this web. I frantically looked around for anything that could assist me.

Off in the distance, I could see the spider approaching. I squeezed my eyes shut and made a mental call for help. When I opened my eyes again, I looked down and saw a bush…a briarpatch. Of course, having heard Brer Rabbit stories for most of my little life up til that point, I bounced on the web to try to bring it down low enough to grab the bush.

The spider was moving in earnest towards me at this point, so I had to hurry. Finally, I reached the bush, and began to pull myself down into an opening I found in it. I had just gotten into it, and scurried away from that opening, when the spider arrived. I covered my mouth and nose, trying not to make a sound, even from breathing.

This huge spider moved all about searching for me-sniffing for me. Again, I closed my eyes and sent out a mental call for help. This time, when I opened my eyes, I was in a different place.

The rectangular room was all white. There were no windows-no doors; only the white walls, the eggshell carpet, and white large cushions. There was not a spot of dirt on anything. I was sitting, Asian style, on these cushions facing the long part of the rectangular walls.

As I was sitting there trying to figure out where I was, I noticed a black smudge had appeared in the wall I was facing. The smudge was moving, getting larger and larger. It began to take form as it grew, gaining definition and looking much like a stick figure of a man at first.

This shadow grew, and as it grew, it did look more and more like a little man, but this little (literally- he was short) man was wearing a top hat, and a tuxedo with the tails. He was walking towards me from within the wall. As he approached me from within the wall, I could see that his body was that same blackness of the pit I had just escaped from, and it had the hellish vines running all through it. All I could see was his face. He looked rather old, and very mean and ugly. He had a large bulbous nose, much like some German people have, and had a look of a miser.

When he had gotten close enough to me in the wall, for me to see his face, he said to me, “My name is Beezlebub and I’ve come to kill you!” With that statement, he suddenly began to expand across the wall. That horrid nasty blackness began to expand and take over that entire room, and within seconds, I was back in the total blackness of the pit I had just escaped out of!

My mind couldn’t comprehend what had just happened. I closed my eyes trying to block it out, but it didn’t go away. I couldn’t get that horrid place out of my head. I closed my eyes again, rubbing them hard, but it was no use. I could not get rid of those horrible vines and that blackness from the pit.

Once more I closed my eyes, but this time I again mentally called for help. It felt like my mind screamed it. I kept thinking, ‘I need HEEEELLLPPPPP!’

Suddenly, I heard a quiet voice say, “Think on good things.”
“Good things?” I asked in my mind. ‘Good things,’ I thought in the silence. ‘What is good?’ Then it hit me. ‘LIGHT!’ ‘WHITE LIGHT! BRIGHT LIGHT!’

I began to focus on bright, white light and as I did, the blackness cleared out of my mind. I focused again, because the room was still black. I closed my eyes and focused on bright, white light, and when I opened them again, a large white face had appeared in the middle of all that blackness. It looked similar to a pac man face, but had two slits for eyes, a slit for a nose, and a slit for a mouth…like an Asian pac man.

I looked at the face, and the face looked at me…and then it smiled at me. I felt safe then. I focused on the face, and it expanded and took over the entire room, bringing it back to pure white again. I sighed a sigh of relief. It was over, I thought….but I was wrong.

Beelzebub popped back into the wall again, and made the same threat to me. I couldn’t believe it, but he started to expand yet again. However, this time, as he tried to expand, the whiteness that had been Face fought back. You could literally see the battle as the blackness fought against the light. It looked like fingers from opposing hands, interlocked and pushing against each other. I thought I’d help in the fight, so I focused my mind totally on Face, and willed Him to win…which He did.

At that point, the dream ended, but it would recur again for years. In fact, it continued to recur, whether in part or in full, for 20 years. For the first couple of years, I would have the whole dream, with the first part of the dream with the pit scene and the spider included. After a while, however, I would just dream the second part-the battle in the white room.

There were times when the dream took over my awake moments. I remember sitting in church, watching my parents singing in the choir of our Baptist church; and suddenly, it was like a veil was thrown over my eyes. I would be looking straight ahead at them, and see nothing but that hellish blackness. Then I’d have to go into battle with Face- that’s what I named Him. Face and I would fight it out. I actually would call Him mentally as the battle started to help me. He would always be there right when I needed Him.

As I’m sure most of you have realized, Beezlebub, was the name I understood as a small child, but it was Beelzebub who had spoken to me, threatening my life. I’m sure it was because he knew, even then, of the threat I would grow up to be to him. And, shortly after these dreams began, my parents had to rush me to the base hospital because my throat started to close up.

I woke up one night, fighting to breathe. That was the first of several attacks on my life. Another was a bicycling accident as a child in which my head was busted open. There were several incidents concerning the “monsters” in my household, some of which involved my life getting threatened with knives. Mind you, this was before certain persons in my household got saved. And years later…my own 5 year old dreamed of an attack against me for 6 months straight, and another biking accident happened in which my left leg sustained a double fracture.

You see, I was supposed to be stopped, because I would inevitably become a writer, telling you all about the power of God; and become a massage therapist, activating a gift for healing. So “Beezlebub wanted to stop me. This is why I write about these things. People have no idea the battles their children are going through, in the dream/spirit world, as well as the physical world.

I could never have told my parents about that dream. I only just recently told my mother…some 30+ years later. How could I as a child, explain what I just explained to you all? I could see it clearly. It is etched in my mind, because it was an ongoing battle I had as a child. But it was not something I could have ever explained back then. I told my mother, “You would have thought I was crazy.” She was not at a mindset to even receive that information, let alone handle the fact that her child was being spiritually attacked.

For those of you that are in the Spirit, be mindful of your child’s dreams, and try to get them to explain as much as possible to you, trusting that you will not be angry or upset with whatever the dreams reveal. It could show you what you need to pray about, and over your kids; or warn you of something that is coming, such as my accident that my son dreamed about at 5 years old. Keep your kids in prayer. GB

Dream Journal – Day 1 – The Spirit World and Your Destiny Part 4

Adam and Eve.
Adam and Eve. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

The thing is God knew that this would happen and prepared a future for us in advance of this disaster Adam and Eve created.

Rev 1:1 The Revelation of Jesus Christ, which God gave unto him, to shew unto his servants things which must shortly come to pass; and he sent and signified [it] by his angel unto his servant John:

Rev 13:8 And all that dwell upon the earth shall worship him, whose names are not written in the book of life of the Lamb slain from the foundation of the world.

Rev 13:9 If any man have an ear, let him hear.

Psa 53:2 God looked down from heaven upon the children of men, to see if there were [any] that did understand, that did seek God.

“Securing confidence and boldness for the future is so significant to the Almighty that He allowed men to enter into the dream dimension and receive vital knowledge for themselves, for their leaders, or for the nations in which they were given authority.”

Examples of this were given:

· God warning King Abimelech with the threat of death if he didn’t return Sarah to Abraham (Gen. 20:6-7).

· God confirming in a dream for Jacob to leave his uncle Laban, taking his wives and sons to Canaan (Gen.31).

· God preparing Joseph’s future by giving him two prophetic dreams when he was a teenager (Gen. 37), and allowing him to interpret the dreams of others (Gen. 40; 41)

· The revelation given to Gideon via the “barley cake dream,” which gave him the confidence to fight the Midianites.

· God’s appearing to Solomon in a dream and granting his request for wisdom (1 Kings 3).

· Daniel’s prophetic dreams and interpretations of the dreams of others (Dan 2; 4; 7).

“God has a predetermined plan for each person. With all the clutter and clamor and mixed voices speaking into our lives (via the media), our minds can become cloudy and our understanding fogged with numerous possibilities from which we must choose.


This is why at times God will permit a believer to pierce the world of the natural and enter the realm of a dream or a vision so that secret strategies of the enemy can be exposed and the hidden plans of God can be revealed.

Warnings that are perceived and received can help you avoid potholes and pits in your path to destiny, and understanding God’s plan will empower you to pursue that purpose.”

Someone tried to tell me the other day that I had missed God on a vision He had given me. She said that I was not ready when that vision manifested itself to me. Let me explain this, because I started this-talking about singles and couples, and the whole peer pressure about being hooked up with someone.

I had a vision over 20 years ago about the one God was sending to me. I have asked Him what happened with this particular vision. I admit that I have not completely walked in faith about it, because in one sense, I sort of gave up on finding a guy that really suited me on all levels.

I’m not going to be phony and pretend like most of the women in my peer group, that looks don’t matter. I’m always hearing these women saying that they don’t care what the man looks like. I’m sorry, but I do care. I’m not so desperate, in fact, I’m not at all desperate; that I will say that I will just accept anything.

I have certain preferences, and I don’t see why God can’t fulfill them, along with bringing a man that is my spiritual equal if not above me, and perfect for me in every other way. I refuse to lower my standards, and act like because I’m not a young doe anymore, I have to settle for just any man, whether or not he appeals to me. No. I still want someone that appeals to me on a physical level just as much as on a spiritual level and all other levels. I’m not ditching that because of age, as that’s just a number.

So with all that said, I have questioned God on what happened with this particular vision, as I’m wondering when it’s going to happen, as all the other ones have taken place already. It’s almost like things were shuffled. The first major vision is, seemingly, the last to occur.

Nevertheless, this older mother – the mother of a friend of mine, claimed that the reason my vision had not occurred yet, is because I missed it. She said that God brought the man, and I was not receptive or ready for him. I wasn’t, according to her, in a place to receive that man and therefore, I missed him.

Now, I admit, she created some doubt in me, but I thought long and hard about that. God knows everything about me. He knows my moods, my bad habits, my irritants, my frustrations; and, He also knows all the things about me that appeal to His heart.

Additionally, He knew that I would separate from and divorce my husband, because He is the one that told me that my ex-husband was being removed from my life. I was the one who disobeyed that, and married him anyways. He showed me prior to the marriage, but you see I had to learn to trust Him.

This was part of my path to learning that. He already knew I would fall. He knew I would marry my ex, despite His showing me that He already had someone else for me. I saw all of this in the same vision. I’ve known about it for more than 20 years.

For this woman to tell me that I missed God on this? I don’t think so. God already knew what my mindset was going to be like after leaving my ex-husband. He knew exactly how long it would be before I started to fully recover from that marriage, and regain my self-confidence. He knew exactly what I would have to go through to learn to trust Him, and He has patiently walked me through all of it.

This is why most of the time I don’t worry about my son. The only concern I have with him is that the time is short, so my prayers are simply that his relationship with God is restored and he is built up in Him prior to the return. Like my ex, I gave my son to the Lord.

With my ex, my prayer was that he makes it into the Kingdom, even if he had to go down to the grave in order to do so. And so, my ex has been deceased since 2006. I saw all this coming in dreams. God revealed it all to me. Maybe one day, I’ll write about those dreams here. What I do know, is that he committed to Christ prior, when I was still with him. I don’t know if he sought God out after we parted, but my hope is that he did.

But, back to what this woman said; she claimed that I wasn’t in the right mindset, and so when God brought the man He intended for me to be with, I wasn’t receptive, and so that door closed. I don’t believe this is true.

First of all, God, knowing me the way He does, would know exactly when to bring this person to me, at a time in which I would be receptive. That’s selling God short to say that He would bring someone when I wasn’t ready. He is the King of being on time, so I’m sorry, but this is just not believable to me.

Secondly, I see no reason why God would give me this vision, and remind me about it periodically over the years whenever I got discouraged; only to rescind it because I wasn’t ready? It’s not jiving. That analogy just doesn’t work. Aside from that, if God foretold my separation from my ex, and even went as far as to show me the next man coming, then why wouldn’t He bring that man at exactly the right time, when I am ready to receive him?

Third, every other dream and vision God has given me has come to pass. Why would I just miss this one? Naw. I don’t think so. I just haven’t thought about it in a long time, but it is the one vision in my story that is yet to occur. This is what tells me that there is still time.

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Dream Journal – Day 1 – The Spirit World and Your Destiny Part 3

Perry goes on to talk about why the spirit world is veiled. He makes a reference to the garden experience. He mentions the fact that before the fall, Adam and Eve could see and hear God clearly. God entered the Garden of Eden and communicated directly with them, walking in the cool of the day.

Michelangelo's painting of the sin of Adam and...
Michelangelo’s painting of the sin of Adam and Eve (the Fall of Man) (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Gen 3:8 And they heard the voice of the LORD God walking in the garden in the cool of the day: and Adam and his wife hid themselves from the presence of the LORD God amongst the trees of the garden.

I always thought it was God’s voice that they simply heard, but how can one’s voice be walking in the garden? And it says they hid themselves from the presence of the Lord God, therefore, He was right there, and they could see Him. Compare that to this:

Luk 8:10 And he said, Unto you it is given to know the mysteries of the kingdom of God: but to others in parables; that seeing they might not see, and hearing they might not understand.

Jhn 3:3 Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God.

Jhn 3:36 He that believeth on the Son hath everlasting life: and he that believeth not the Son shall not see life; but the wrath of God abideth on him.

Rom 11:8 (According as it is written, God hath given them the spirit of slumber, eyes that they should not see, and ears that they should not hear;) unto this day.

Remember that in the Garden of Eden they were conversing with the Lord regularly. He walked in the Garden with them, so they could see Him. However, when they fell, after Adam, the one given the commission, disobeyed and bit into that forbidden apple, the eyes of both of them were opened. You see, men want to say it was Eve that caused it, but their eyes weren’t opened when Eve bit that apple. Their eyes were “opened” after Adam bit it.

Gen 3:6 And when the woman saw that the tree [was] good for food, and that it [was] pleasant to the eyes, and a tree to be desired to make [one] wise, she took of the fruit thereof, and did eat, and gave also unto her husband with her; and he did eat.

Gen 3:7 And the eyes of them both were opened, and they knew that they [were] naked.

You see where the eyes of both of them got opened at? Right after he ate, not after she did. Let’s be real, and get this straight. Now, my point is that if they were walking in the Garden with the Lord, and could see Him, then what was it that they could “see” when their eyes became “opened?”

So the question is, “What did our eyes become opened to?” I mean, if we could see the spirit world initially, before the fall, what changed? I think, in looking at this, that what happened is that we had full vision in the spirit. Despite being a spirit within a body of flesh, I think that in the beginning, our eyes saw only spiritual things and the spiritual world, despite being in a physical body from a cursed earth.

When Adam and Eve sinned, their eyes “opened” to the fleshly world, and closed or were veiled to the spiritual world. It makes me think of the Avatar movie. When the scientists in that film put on the skin of the people of that world, and became, for all appearances sake, like them; they could “see” the world that those beings saw, and the beauty of it.

They no longer saw with the eyes of mankind, the eyes they came there with. That is why those two scientists in particular, wanted to join that world. The other scientists and the military could not see what those two scientists saw because their eyes were veiled. They saw on a flesh level, whereas, the two scientists were able to see on a more spiritual level, because their eyes had been opened to it.

That is similar to the concept I’m now getting about the Garden of Eden. Adam and Eve had full access to the spirit world, despite being in fleshly bodies, but they didn’t recognize what they had, and the authority given to them. The enemy knew, so he played on their ignorance, and sucked them into giving away their royal positions.

Now, in order to have our eyes opened into the spirit world, we must spend a lot of time in prayer, and seeking God, and He may decide to lift the veil and allow us the privilege of a glimpse of what real glory and reality really is. Amazing. This is why we must walk by faith and not by sight.

Psa 14:2 The LORD looked down from heaven upon the children of men, to see if there were any that did understand, [and] seek God.



Dream Journal – Day 1 – The Spirit World and Your Destiny Part 2

Messages in dreams Rev 22:1 And he shewed me a pure river of water of life, clear as crystal, proceeding out of the throne of God and of the Lamb.

Rev 22:2 In the midst of the street of it, and on either side of the river, [was there] the tree of life, which bare twelve [manner of] fruits, [and] yielded her fruit every month: and the leaves of the tree [were] for the healing of the nations.

Rev 22:3 And there shall be no more curse: but the throne of God and of the Lamb shall be in it; and his servants shall serve him:

Rev 22:4 And they shall see his face; and his name [shall be] in their foreheads.

Rev 22:5 And there shall be no night there; and they need no candle, neither light of the sun; for the Lord God giveth them light: and they shall reign for ever and ever.

English: Image of tree with birds.
English: Image of tree with birds. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Wow! The wannabe gardener in me is marveling at the idea of a tree that bears 12 different fruits! Imagine! And, the healer in me – massage therapist – likes the idea of leaves that can be used for healing.

What I just found out is the number 12, which as reflecting the symbolic perfection of redeemed man in terms of the “perfect” number, 12 signifies perfection of government in Scripture multiplied by divine order (Ten signifies divine order in scripture). 144,000 is the square of 12 times the cube of 10.

I just found a lot of information on numbers, so I am going to incorporate that info into this journal as I go, and as the numbers pop. In the prior post, I mentioned the numbers two and three.

TWO: This number can mean difference, division, or double portion.

THREE: In sacred Scripture the number 3 represents that which is solid, real, substantial, and something in its completeness. This number usually indicates something of importance or significance in God’s plan of salvation by identifying an important event in Salvation History. This number operates as a “sign-post” in Scripture study for the reader to “pay attention” to the significance of the next event. Three is the number of perfect completion for the Jews and for Christians. The number three symbolized the perfection of the Godhead = Trinity.

“The fact is that there is an invisible veil covering both the natural eyes and the spiritual understanding of men and women, and only when the veil is lifted or pierced can the realities of the invisible realm become visible.

There is a covering of some sort on our physical eyes which prevents us from seeing the activity of the spirit world. However, when we sleep, we are still able to see images through dreams or visions. In Scripture, men like the apostle John recorded these dreams and visions.”

This is why I told my son that he could not listen to rap or techno when he is going to sleep. If he wants to listen to music when he goes to sleep, he needs to listen to something that is edifying. He likes Josh Groban and Andrea Bochelli, so I told him that something more like that is ok. The reason is that the gates to the mind are open when we sleep. That secular rap has a lot of unclean spirits attached to it, and look at the messages of those songs – it’s nothing good.

Rev 4:1 After this I looked, and, behold, a door [was] opened in heaven: and the first voice which I heard [was] as it were of a trumpet talking with me; which said, Come up hither, and I will shew thee things which must be hereafter.

Rev 19:11 And I saw heaven opened, and behold a white horse; and he that sat upon him [was] called Faithful and True, and in righteousness he doth judge and make war.

You see, a door must be opened for things to be revealed from heaven, but at the same time, a door must be open in us to receive that info. In sleep, that door is open, but you don’t want to invite the wrong spirit to come in, and that music will send them out and draw them in.

One of the questions that Perry poses in these pages is, “Why would God be concerned about revealing events to us that have not yet occurred?” It is simply to prepare us for an event, so that we can combat it. One thing I learned in reading this book is that just because God reveals something that may not be an appealing situation to you; meaning it could be something that is not a pleasant experience; does not mean that that situation is locked in stone.

In other words, just because God shows you that a potentially negative situation is coming; does not mean that we cannot intercede in prayer to change the outcome, or the situation itself. I always thought that once God showed you something, that was just how it was, and it never occurred to me that I had the power to alter the situation into a better outcome.

You see, when I was seeing things that God revealed to me in dreams previously, and even when my son, through his gift saw them, I did not know I could affect those warnings with prayer. Once I recognized that we were getting a warning, I was so busy trying to protect and/or prepare my son for what was coming, that it never occurred to me that I could alter it. I cannot stop the situation, but I can alter it somewhat. You should know however, that God controls the “somewhat.” The only other alternative I can see to altering a situation is this:

Mat 18:18 Verily I say unto you, Whatsoever ye shall bind on earth shall be bound in heaven: and whatsoever ye shall loose on earth shall be loosed in heaven.

Mat 18:19 Again I say unto you, That if two of you shall agree on earth as touching any thing that they shall ask, it shall be done for them of my Father which is in heaven.

Mat 18:20 For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them.



Dream Journal – Day 1 – The Spirit World and Your Destiny Part 1

I had said I was going to do a dream journal. Then, I promptly misplaced the book that I was using as the basis of this concept. That book is “How To Interpret Dreams & Visions – Understanding God’s Warnings & Guidance” by Perry Stone.

The reason I put Part 1 up there in the title, is that the journal first asks me to read a section of the book. If I read it, naturally, I’m going to see some points that I’m going to want to bring into this, so I just figured that “Day 1” may last longer than 1 day, technically. Aside from that, I won’t be posting these daily, but more than likely once or twice a week, depending on my time and availability.

So the first thing I want to point out in what I’m reading in this section is the following:

English: Jerusalem Municipality, Kikar Safra.
English: Jerusalem Municipality, Kikar Safra. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

“The spirit world is as real as the air we breathe and the water we drink. The natural realm is a reflection of the spirit world. Earthly things are patterned after heavenly things. (See Hebrews 8:1-5) Our world consists of trees, rivers, mountains, and cities. The heavenly city, New Jerusalem, has the tree of life, the crystal river of life, and a mountain where God is worshiped called Mount Zion (Rev. 22:1-5). The heavenly realities were the original Creation that was reflected on Earth when God created man.”

Man, there is so much I could say about all of this. I could write a book, and actually, much of what I have to say about this is in a book that I am in the process of writing, so I’ll let that lie for now. However, I do have a few thoughts about the reflection issue, and things being patterned after heavenly things.

Hbr 8:1 Now of the things which we have spoken [this is] the sum: We have such an high priest, who is set on the right hand of the throne of the Majesty in the heavens;

Hbr 8:2 A minister of the sanctuary, and of the true tabernacle, which the Lord pitched, and not man.

Hbr 8:3 For every high priest is ordained to offer gifts and sacrifices: wherefore [it is] of necessity that this man have somewhat also to offer.

Hbr 8:4 For if he were on earth, he should not be a priest, seeing that there are priests that offer gifts according to the law:

Hbr 8:5 Who serve unto the example and shadow of heavenly things, as Moses was admonished of God when he was about to make the tabernacle: for, See, saith he, [that] thou make all things according to the pattern shewed to thee in the mount.

I remember when I was younger and I was struggling with the fact that I was alone, with no companionship from the opposite sex. I was OK with the idea, but society wasn’t. In fact, the mothering instinct had already hit me a few years prior, and I had asked God for a child. I didn’t ask for a husband, except in light of the fact that this was the way things were supposed to be done. I just wanted a child.

Yet, society was telling me that something was wrong with me if I wasn’t with someone. Society was telling me that I should want the “fairytale” and that my happy ending only came if I did what everyone else did and got married.

In everything, everywhere, all I saw were couples. Even in church, they had couple’s ministries and events, and those of us that were single were left out, and felt left out. When they did start a single’s ministry, it quickly turned into a meat market situation, which in and of itself, was depressing. Additionally, many of them were more about how to prepare yourself to bring that “special someone” into your life, as opposed to what a valuable contribution you could be as a single individual in the Kingdom of God.

So one night, while I was still living at home, which means I was about 19; I was lying on the hood of my parent’s car, and gazing at the stars. I used to have real intimate time with the Lord like this. I had two places in the city I lived in, that I would go to speak to God. These were just places that I could find solace in, and I went there in times of distress and depression to find Him.

So on this particular night, I was star gazing, and I started asking God some questions. I wanted to know why He sent all the animals into the ark in two’s, and why everything was preserved in two’s like that. My conflict was in the fact that everything is patterned after God, who is a triune individual, being a three part (partnered) being – the Father, the Son, and the Spirit.

I asked Him why everything was in two’s in the ark, and everyone around me is a two; couples everywhere, so even if I went along with the whole fairytale thing, I’d still be in a two, yet He is three. If we are patterned after Him, why are we paired up in two’s?

He answered me. First He explained that the animals actually went into the ark in threes, because they carried seed, and were able to give birth after their kind, just as we are. Therefore, the first three is of course, God. Then we as mankind are unified as a unit of three when two come together; same as the animals.

We too, are a triune being, patterned after God, but we have a spirit, soul and body. So there again are three 3’s. This is why the unity demonstrated in the pairs in the ark is so important, as it was in the garden in the beginning. It is that, which Satan attacked, but again, this is the subject of a book I’m working on, so I won’t get into it here.


When Children Dream Part 2

Apparently, I wrote the first entry to this off the cuff. Normally, I write whatever I’m writing in a Word doc first, then transfer it over after I’ve had time to edit for errors. So while I was expecting to just find the document and post the second half on Monday, in the few minutes I had to be online; I discovered that there was no document to find. I had just written the first half in the blog itself.
I will say, though, that I was flattered to see that I had so many visits in such a short time span. In fact, several of you kept coming back, apparently looking for the second half to this topic. I’m very happy by your interest in my writing, and the fact that you appreciate what I have to say is very humbling. Thus, I won’t keep you waiting much longer.
However, let me let you know that I write in about 5 different places online. This blog is the newest spot, but I have other blogs, and an article site as well as my website that I write in. Usually, I try to put something new in each one every week at different times, but I’m not always successful in updating all of them.
It depends on the time restraints, but I’m trying to get myself organized enough that I can make a schedule and stick with it. Life just seems too spontaneous for absolutes though, so I will just tell you to check my side bar and the feeds coming in to them, as that will let you know where I’ve updated if I have not done so in this particular blog at the point in which you are visiting.
In reviewing the last post, I see that I already told you the meaning on the first dream. One thing that a friend of mine noted when I related all of this to her. My son had a dream in which he was on a pier, but it was about peer pressure.  That situation was in the natural realm, but it has actually moved into the spiritual realm as well. My son is battling with his belief. He’s battling with understanding his purpose. He feels like he can’t commit fully to God unless he knows his purpose, but he won’t be able to find his purpose without fully committing to God. It’s a catch 22, and he’s swimming in the lake of confusion, with an undertow of media pulling at him, trying to take him away. But…I have put him in God’s hands, and I serve a mighty God. My son will be fine. He will find his way, by finding God’s way.

However, in the second dream, I have found two meanings on two levels. (You may need to go back to re-read it in the first post on this topic.) Originally, the meaning was based on the natural world-in the flesh. Yes, there were spiritual elements definitely, but the first interpretation was about something that would happen in the physical world.
First of all, at the original time period of this dream, when my son walked into the park, he saw 3 frogs sitting on 3 lily pads in the pond. The first two sets of the number 3. I know you are probably wondering why I’m so attentive to numbers here. There are several studies in which I talk about numbers and the power of them. 
Who was on the 3 lily pads? None other than the Father, Son, and Spirit, of course. The third of the set of 3’s was once he went up the hill. The kids were playing and 3 balls came in his direction. The third set of 3, confirmed that this was a trial period in which he would be tested.
Additionally, the last set of three (the balls) could have represented any of the three typical attacks of the enemy, but the one that caused him to fall was lust of the eyes. Remember that he agreed to pick up the first 2 balls that came in his direction, but refused to get the third ball, which had gone past him and down the hill.
How did he fall then? After stating that he would not get that third ball, he went to “see” where it went. As soon as he did that, he found himself in a place of darkness. I told him that this was because he needs to let his no be no, and his yes, be yes.
This is how kids tend to get into trouble. They may do what the parent taught them and abstain from whatever the temptation may be, however, they hang around to “see” what will happen. By doing that, they are entertaining foolishness or sin, and when you entertain sin, it will catch you by the heels (by surprise) and not let you go until you too, are snared in its grip and in trouble.
Once he got into the dark place, he was afraid and began calling for me. At that point, he saw a light, and began to follow that light, no longer calling me, but following the light and moving closer towards it until he found his way out of the darkness. At the time that I first saw this, when he first told me the dream; I stated that he should have been calling God, not me. Now, however, I realize that I am his guide; the example that he follows that brings him to the place where he can see the light.
Never forget the eyes that are watching you in your walk. You won’t be perfect. None of us are, and we will all slip and fall at times. What I have learned though, is it is how you handle the fall that counts. Do you reach out for Daddy’s hand (reach for the Lord) to help you get back up, or do you struggle to get up yourself, and run off in embarrassment? God is not worried about your fall, but about whether or not you will turn to Him or run from Him in shame. That is the real test of all broken people.
That was the physical side of the dream, which happened in his reality already. Even I had a dream about the darkness he was going to go into in the physical realm. I had this dream just 2 weeks before the event happened. I’m still debating on if I want to tell you the actual events, so bear with me. I’ve gotta pray about that.
However, there is also a spiritual side that I just recently saw as I was in the midst of writing these posts. Everything in the dreams is the same, but the difference is the darkness that occurred. Instead of a physical darkness, it is a spiritual one, in which the light of God looks like a small light that is far away. He can see it, and is moving towards it, but it’s a slow progression. One thing that makes me know that the darkness is spiritual is the fact that he now says he no longer dreams.
This, coming from a child with a dream gift; tells me that some darkness has blocked his innate ability, and he’s not hearing from God the way he was as a child. I mean, this is a child that would come running to my room at night, asking me if I had called him, like Samuel did, when I had not.
This is why scripture says that you must come as a child, because children’s spirits are more open and receptive because they are more trusting than we are. They haven’t experienced the fallacies and life’s cares and disappointments to cause them to be skeptical or doubtful yet.
It’s just like I recently told my son about when I was a babe in Christ. In the beginning of my walk with Christ, I wanted assurance that He was always with me. I want my son to have this assurance as well, because he is always saying that he feels lonely and alone, even when with me.
Being that his father was never around after my separation and subsequent divorce due to lack of interest; my son feels that I’m all he has. He wants a girlfriend so that he doesn’t feel alone. I tried to explain to him (at 16) that God is the one that would remove that feeling of loneliness, but he cannot see it yet.
He’s got some really good understanding of some principles and things in scripture, because we discuss them. He likes doing deep studies with me. But, his personal relationship with God has yet to develop, so I’m trying to find ways to encourage him.
What do I think blocks his abilities? The hurt and anger concerning his father and the disappointment and depression he went into after his father passed. Additionally, the bullying and harassment he suffered in the first three years after returning to public school – middle school, the worst time ever for a kid. All of this occurred in the first year he returned to public school after being homeschooled for about 3 years, and it went downhill from there.
After recognizing his disabilities, (ADHD & Asperger’s Syndrome) which manifested heavily during this time period, I got him into a different school; one focusing on children with emotional, behavioral and social problems. This was where the turnaround began. So slowly, we are progressing, and he has moved out of the depression. He became happy once we moved into a house, and he was moved out of that first middle school, despite having to repeat twice as a result of that school.
So now, I’m trying to help him move towards that light again. In doing so, I mentioned to him what I used to do when I was first a babe in Christ, and wanted to know He was always with me. I would ask him to touch me. I would literally stretch out my hands, palms up and ask Him to touch me. I would ask Him if He was with me, and would He touch my hands so I would know that He was indeed with me. Then, I would get pins and needles on my hands as He touched me to let me know He was always there.
When I started to explain this to my son, he claimed that it was a circulation thing, but how could it be, when it only occurred when I made this request? I had told him about how, when I worked at night in the post office, we had a 15 minute break. I was usually trying to catch a cat nap in that time, and I would ask Jesus to wake me at the end of the 15 minutes, because at that time, I had no watch. I would sit or lay down on the couch in the locker room and sleep, and exactly 15 minutes to the “T,” I would start getting pins and needles on my hands, or shoulders, or the top of my head, and sometimes my feet, to wake me up. I was always back from my break on time.
Even as I’m writing this now, I’m getting the same touch on my hands. I did this for a long time, and every time, God would touch me, sometimes enough so that I felt the weight of his hands and not just the pins and needles. When I became confident of the fact that He is always with me, I stopped asking to be touched. I had grown in my faith, and I no longer needed that as proof that He is with me.
So I tried to tell my son to test God on this. If he wants to know if God is with him, to have the faith of a little child, and simply ask God to touch him, so he will know he’s not alone. I’m waiting to see the results – if he does it. I know it will bring him one step closer to God. Peace and blessings.

When Children Dream 1

Since starting this dream journal, I had misplaced my book. The book I’m referring to is How To Interpret Dreams and Visions by Perry Stone. I searched my room after finding several other books that I am in the midst of reading or studying, but somehow, that one has hidden itself temporarily from view.

Thus, knowing that nothing is coincidental, and everything happens for a reason, I feel impelled to share something else along the same lines, that may be beneficial depending on whether or not you have children, are a child yourself (at heart) or, have a dream gift that you are just discovering.

I put a number 1 on the title, because frankly, I may touch upon this subject again at a later date, as I have more than one story to relate. I was going to tell you about a dream I had as a child, but I decided to focus today on one my son had as a child. He has had several that were significant, as well as symbolic, and that were warnings.

Now, in my other site, I also wrote about dreams there, particularly one that my son had as a much younger child, which involved a potentially life threatening situation for me. However, the dream I’m going to tell you about now, was a warning for him, in fact, he had two similar dreams of this nature.

In the first dream, he saw himself at a lake. I was standing on the beach talking with someone. There was a small pier that went several feet out over the water of the lake. He had walked down the pier to the edge near the water. While he was standing there, a wave came up and knocked him off the pier.

You’d think he’d call for help immediately, but like most people, he figured he could handle everything on his own. So as he began to struggle against the waves, the undertow kept pulling him further and further away from the pier and the beach. By the time he realized that his efforts alone were not enough, and attempted to call me, he was so far from the shore, that I could not hear his call.

Now this situation applied to a particular set of events that have already happened to my son, but even as I write about this and describe this for you, I see another meaning coming. You see, these dreams and visions can manifest on two planes. I can be in the flesh, or in the spirit, or both. One thing you have to know about God-given dreams and visions is that they are not always just for one incident or one circumstance.

I have had a vision from my early 20’s that God has brought back to my mind on more than one occasion, and each time, I see something a little different in the picture of that vision that He wants me to understand. We are spiritual beings, but our flesh is like a barrier that prevents us from seeing only on a spiritual level. Depending on how close you are to God, will dictate your ability to see beyond your flesh and into the spirit world.

It’s a level thing. Thus, as you grow as a person in your relationship with God, your level shifts and changes according to your growth. If you aren’t actively seeking Him on your own, independent of church attendance, you will not see nor understand what I’m talking about. You have to actively seek Him out for yourself in order to really accelerate your growth and relationship with Him.

My son is still not as close as he needs to be to see in the spirit the way he should. He understand a lot, but he has not fully surrendered because his emotions need healing in order for that to happen. He believes in God, but he believes that God only favors me, and not him as well. He thinks that all the blessings he sees us getting are only on account of God’s love for me, and not for him. He doesn’t feel like he’s included in that, and I am still trying to figure out why.

My son, just like in the dream I described above, is still trying to handle everything on his own. He does not yet understand that dependence on God is what we are supposed to do, and that it’s not a burden to God, but a joy. Now, that dream has moved into the spirit realm, because he has already experienced it in the physical realm. The other dream was similar.

In that dream, he was walking in a park. He was on a dirt road, with a hill to his right, and a lake to his left. The road was like the letter “T” and he was on the long lower section of the letter in the road. At the top part, just beyond the lake and the hill, the road went to the left and right, but not straight ahead, as there was a drop.

As he was walking by the lake on the lower end of the “T,” he noticed 3 frogs sitting on 3 lily pads looking at him. He turned to the right at the end of the path and went up on the hill. There were some kids a ways away from him playing a game with 3 balls. The balls suddenly all came towards him, but one rolled past him down the hill.

A girl who had been running after the balls called out to him and told him to get the balls for her. He stated that he would get the two near him, but not the one that had rolled down the hill, as it was too far away. After retrieving the first two balls, he then went to “look” to see where the 3rd ball had gone.

As he walked to the edge of the hill to look, he suddenly found himself in a place of darkness. He had no idea where he was, but he was scared. He began calling for me, and when he did, he saw a light off in the distance. He began walking towards that light, and when he did, he eventually came up out of that dark place. There the dream ended.

As usual, whenever my son would have these dreams, he would wake up and come asking me what it means. I explained to him at that time, what the dreams indicated. The first dream showed a situation in which he had gotten in trouble of some sort. The wave that knocked him off the pier could have been from any number of sources or situations that he thought he knew how to handle, but that overwhelmed him. At the time, I distinctly remember telling him that this had to do with peer pressure.

The fact that he was in a place or position to get knocked down was enough of a warning, but additionally, he was actually knocked down, and not just down, but into a situation that he could have potentially drowned in. While he was struggling to swim back to the shore, the undertow spoke of things behind the scenes that he knew nothing about. It is often this way with us all.

We think we have a grasp on a situation, but we don’t know the undercurrents of it. This is why trusting God is so vital, because He has the aerial viewpoint, and He knows all that backstage stuff that’s going on. If you don’t have that relationship with Him, you won’t get warned of what to be on the lookout for.

The fact of the matter is that while my son, in his dream was fighting with his pride in trying to handle everything himself, he got further into the mess and closer to a situation in which he would have drowned in it. He was pulled out so far away from where he should have been, which was with me, because he thought he was strong enough, or knew enough to deal. He waited until almost the last minute to call for help. That is not the time.

The time to call for help is before things get to the point where you might not be heard. God has his limits too. Sometimes, He will allow us to go through the storm for a while until we recognize our need for Him. However, if He has been extending grace to you, over and over and over again, and you disregard Him continually, and insist on doing what you know is not right; there will come a point in which He will get tired and leave you to your own devices and subsequent disaster.

In other words, don’t test Him. There’s a difference between trying God, and testing God. You don’t want to do the later. Later, I will continue this post, and explain the other dream my son had. Until then…may God bless you and keep you. May God make His face to shine upon you. Peace.

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